Here we are with our running and confusion...

Well the semester finally feels as though it's winding down... and I don't know if I'm okay with that. I know, I know I've been ready for classes to end since February, but I just don't know how ready I am to say goodbye to everyone. Of course as far as the majority of my friends are concerned I'll be away from them for a couple of months, but then we'll all come back together in August. BUT all of the sudden as the graduation countdowns become less ridiculous and in fact very looming I'm at a loss as to what to think. Yeah I'll be able to manage without Hope's 30 pairs of shoes in the office, and Ebony's organic peanut butter, but I don't know if I can function without Shelley's eye-rolls, Hope's singing every other sentence, Tim's hugs, and Brian's (hopefully joking) looks of disdain whenever I walk into the shop.
Obviously this is something that happens every single year, so I'm going to have to get over it, but it's still sad. I have a feeling that a lot is going to change next year and I have never been even remotely good at adjusting to changes I don't like. It's something I need to work on.

In other news... audition prep is going okay. We'll see. The odds appear to be stacked against us succeeding, but we'll pull it off just fine I'm sure.
I got a very tentative show offer for January and I really hope it pans out because it looks like it would be a great opportunity.

The search for a stage management professor is on and it really got me thinking about lots of things. What makes a good SM professor and how the heck do you pick one? We get to meet with the 4 canidates in the next few weeks so I guess we'll find out. I just want the department to benefit. That's all! Let's just get someone who loves stage managing. That's my two cents.

As far as my personal life if concerned it's not quite in a shambles... but I'm still kind of going day to day. I tend to put personal stuff on the back burner because it's so unpredictable. Theatre, school, religion; these things all come first because I have at least some control over them. So at times such as now when it comes to the front of my life with a vengeance it's not good. I need to be in charge of my own life. Lately I feel as though I'm not. This leads to angsty self loathing Marley, and honestly, nobody wants to deal with that - especially me.

Oh well. I suppose it's all going to turn out just fine. I just wish the happy resolution would hurry itself up a bit. I'm rather impatient.

~Marley